baby love

it seems like i have been loving all things baby for the past year. first, while i was pregnant with cooper, spending hours online trying to find the perfect onesie or the best crib design, organizing his room and putting every small little wonder in its place. once he was born, i had so much fun putting all those treasures to use and i was in constant awe of how those tiny clothes were big on his perfect little body. now that cooper is gone, i imagine what it would be like to read books to him and watch him play. i often find myself in his nursery staring at his little clothes and toys, longing for what might have been. but i also find myself reading blogs written by mothers, researching the hottest must haves for baby, looking at maternity clothes, and bookmarking the things i wont be able to live without. a sign that i am still in baby mode and hoping we will have another baby in the not so distant future.

in my quest of all things baby, i stumbled upon a hat on etsy that i loved. i contacted the woman who made it and asked if she would sell me the pattern, she said that "the pattern would not be ready for sometime." so, i do what designers do, i came up with my own version, similar but uniquely my own. i need to tweak the pattern a little, but who knows maybe i will sell it to others who love all things baby. but overall i was pleased with the hat, but i needed a newborn model. luckily, my friend michelle just had baby kate. and she is the most perfect model.

this creative endeavor dear readers is the first bit of designing i have done since cooper died, which is a sign that my heart is mending and that gives me hope. hope that i will love all things baby for some time to come.