a brief return to normalcy

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

today i went grocery shopping and did laundry. now this may not seem like a major accomplishment and may even sound quite dreadful, but dear readers the fact that i did both of these tasks in one day is nothing short of a miracle. why you ask? i havent done either of these things since before my cooper was born. and for those who arent sure of the exact timeline, that is almost 4 months. the significance of my accomplishment is maybe, just maybe there is a bit of normalcy or at least routine returning to my days.

and while this feels good to me today, i know that tomorrow i could feel entirely different about my accomplishments. i could wake up and not want to do anything but stay in bed, cry and miss my cooper like crazy. thats the beauty of grief, one moment is good and the next is more than you can handle.

but i will take the string of good moments that have made up today because its days like today that help me get through the next bad day.

and you know what? i am even cooking dinner. its a very good day indeed.

6 comments:

  1. I am glad for you.

    Thinking of you while I wash my OWN laundry,
    <3 sarasophia

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  2. I'm glad you were able to accomplish today what used to be routine. That's a big step! What
    kind of curtains did you make? Where did you
    go to work? I hope tomorrow is good too.

    SG

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  5. One day at a time....one minute at a time. Definately only do what you feel like doing. I was "pressured" to get back to things after my Jarod died (by some people) and I have felt like some of my "time-to-grieve" was stolen by those people. Take your time.
    God bless!

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  6. I agree with Jenny...take YOUR time...
    When you get a chance, can you send me the pattern for Cooper's bird? Thanks!

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