home

i have lived a number
of different places over my life.
some of them were brief stops
on my journey, others beckoned
me to stay longer.

i have lived in upstate new york
for the longest span of time,
in my adult life anyway.

there are times when
it feels like home
and other times it
is the most foreign place on the planet.

it is the place where i live
with ph and chace.
it is the place were have
we have a home.
it is the place where i
have built a life,

but is it home?
is it the place that comes to
mind when i hear the word home?

yes it is. but.

home is also the smell on pinion
burning in santa fe.
the amazing number of stars
in the night sky out west.

home is also the feeling
i get when i step off the plane in texas.
it is a place that  knows the depths of my soul.
there is something familiar and comforting
about the lone star state.

home is also the smell of salt
air blowing off the Mediterranean sea,
stepping of the boat and feeling the
dna settle in my bones.
greece is the place of ancestors
and i feel it every time in set foot on the island.

home is where i go when i need to feel settled.
home is where i go when i need comfort.
home is where i go when i feel restless in my current place.

where do you go for the feeling of home?
where is your home?

tuesday tidbits

** chace fell asleep at 3

** after spending two hours of rolling around in his bed, talking and singing to himself.

** it feel like spring.

** ph said it smelled like spring this am.

** if it is not going to snow anymore, i would like it to warm up.

** the quilt i made for the montessori auction is finished.

** well, i have to sew the binding on.

** i love it!

** i hope that it brings in some cash and dollars for the school.

** i have applied for 3 shows: one in rochester, one in austin, and one in charlotte.

** if i get in, i have lots of sewing to do.

** today is not one of my better parenting days.

** chace came home from school very cranky.

** i am looking forward to yoga tonight.

** we are having tamales from santa fe tonight.

** ph drove them home.

** did you watch the academy awards?

** i thought that there were some great dresses on the red carpet.

** happy tuesday!

not ready, yet

for the majority of my youth,
we did not live in the same
town as my grandparents, or any other relatives.
we saw them often enough,
but they were not right down the street.
having so much family in one place
is difficult for me.

there was a time when we lived
in the same town as my dad's parents.
i have memories of spending the night,
watching dukes of hazard,
charlies angels, and sleeping in
my beloved aunt molly's bed.

my age was 5 or 6 years old.
not two years old.

ph and i have had a running disagreement lately.
when is the appropriate time to let chace
spend the night away from home?
more specifically, at his grandmother's house.

not because, we are out of town
or sick or there is some kind of emergency.
the reason according to ph:
"is that is what grandkids do".

i do not agree with him.
i think there is no reason
for him to spend the night at two years old.
i am not saying never.
i am saying wait until he is old enough to
really enjoy all the spending
the night out  entails,
when he is old enough to look fondly
on that experience.

chace is much like me when
it comes to sleep.
i have a pretty good idea
that he is going to be the kind of kid
who wants to come home at 10pm.
i could be wrong, but i recognize the signs.

i have been thinking about
this a great deal lately.
trying to figure out i am so reluctant.
and the bottom line is i am not ready.
kids grow so fast, there will be a time when
chace can not wait to get out of our house.
i am in no hurry to have him spend the night out.

i know that i can not keep him little forever,
but i dont want to rush his growing up just yet.

tuesday tidbits

** i love red licorice.

** eating it now with a diet coke as i type.

** chace is off of school this week.

** i ordered a table top photo light box kit so i can photograph lucends products.

** i am kinda excited about it.

** have i told you how much i love "the voice"?

** great show.

** i need to get my lucends business in order.

** i have been trying to finish up some other projects.

** like cleaning out the basement.

** i want to recover some of our lampshades.

** give them a little boost.

** the shrimp and grits i made last night for dinner was AWESOME!

** we need a new mattress.

** it kills my back.

** but it is not in the budget anytime soon.

**more yoga for me.

**i long to go to the beach, smell the salt air and sit in the sun.

** the grey is getting to me.

**i know mom, we should move to NC.

**off to sew a quilt top together.

** happy tuesday

official request

last week i spoke with jen

the cardiac social worker at strong

to catch up and see how many 

cooper birds she had left.

there are 25 left.

i can not believe that

we are down to the last 25.

she thought that they would last 

about a month and a half.

i have never been sure what 

i would do when we "offfically'"

ran out of birds.

but when she told me that we were

down to the last few, i knew

what i had to do.

make more!!

i made 7 one morning last 

week while chace was at school.

the birds are great way to use up my 

fabric scraps.

so this i my official request.

if you would like to help 

replenish the flock

i would greatly appreciate it.

these birds bring such comfort 

to families during a very difficult time.

i feel compelled to keep making them.

if you are interested in helping

email me and i will send you the 

knit bird pattern or the sewn bird pattern or both.

every bird counts and makes a difference.

so anyway you can help out would be appreciated.

xoxoxo

final analysis

People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered.
FORGIVE THEM ANYWAY.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish motives.
BE KIND ANYWAY.

If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies.
SUCCEED ANYWAY.

If you are honest and sincere, people may deceive you.
BE HONEST AND SINCERE ANYWAY.

If you spend years building, someone could destroy it overnight.
BUILD IT ANYWAY.

If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous.
BE HAPPY ANYWAY.

The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow.
DO GOOD ANYWAY.

Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough.
GIVE THEM YOUR BEST ANYWAY.

In the final analysis, it is between you and god.
IT WAS NEVER BETWEEN
YOU AND THEM ANYWAY.

                                                              -mother theresa

tidbits

** i laid out the blocks for a quilt that i have been working on for two years!

** i love it!

** i discovered that a friend of mine makes better cutouts than wegmans.

** this is life changing news.

** this friend and i are having a huge basement sale in two weeks.

** she is moving into a new house and i need to clean out my basement.

** we are having leftover king ranch chicken for dinner.

** i am applying to two craft shows  for the spring.

** one here and one in austin.

** nothing like a show to get me motivated to work.

** i nap too much.

** this is beginning to concern me.

** ph and i are going to watch justified tonight.

** swoon.

** i need to write thank you notes.

** i have a mani/pedi at scott miller tomorrow.

** kathy is going to be appalled by the state of my hands.

** we still have lots of leftover cake from the birthday circus.

** maybe we should have cake for dinner.