Playing in my mind

This song is one that reminds me of cooper.
It has been playing in my mind since Friday.

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Who you'd be today

Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
I feel you everywhere I go
I see your smile, I see your face
I hear you laughin in the rain
I still can't believe your gone

It ain't fair: you died too young
Like the story that had just begun.
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how much I miss you.
All the hell I've been through,
Just knowin no one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder
Who you'd be today?

Would you see the work? Would you chase your dreams?
Settle down with a family,
I wonder what would you name your babies?
Some days the sky's so blue,
I feel like I can talk to you
An' I know it might sound crazy.

It ain't fair : you died too young
Like the story that had just begun
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you
All the hell I've been through
Just knowin no one could take your place.
An sometimes I wonder
Who you'd be today?

Sunny days seem to hurt the most
I wear the pain like a heavy coat
The only thing that gives me hope,
Is I know I will see you again some day.

no words

there are no words
for the events that took
place today in newtown ct.

there are no words.
there is sadness.
there is outrage.
there is immense grief.
but there are no words.

my heart hurts
for the families of those
precious children whose
lives were cut short.

i wish i could hold
each of their parents.
i would tell them i understand
how their heart is shattered
in a million pieces.

i would tell them
that their grief is my grief.
i would tell them that i feel
the weight of their loss.

i would tell them
that i know this club
they have unwilling entered.

i would hold them close.
i would absorb their tears.
i would listen to their screams.
i would just be there,
knowing that there is nothing
that can make it hurt less.

and i would tell them
that out of the darkness comes light.
it may take days, weeks, months or years,
but the light will come.

they must hold on to the
knowledge and hope that it will come.
and until that day arrives, there are many people
who are shining the light on them
and their sweet precious angels.

Underground

lately,  I have been underground
i haven't had much to say.
but my mind has been busy.
constantly moving while working.

trying to honor the past
while staying in the present.
dreading this time of year
but finding myself viewing the magic
of Christmas through chace's eyes.

music has always played a role in my world
specifically lyrics.
words have the ability to calm me
and help sort out whatever emotion I am feeling.

so while I have been working away in
my sewing room I have been listening
to songs that remind me of cooper
and the emotions this time of year bring.

i thought I would share some of those
songs with you over the next few days.
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"over  you"

weatherman said its gonna snow
by now I said be used to the cold
Mid-February shouldnt be so scary
It was only December
I still remember the present, the tree, you and me

But you went away
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I'll be ok
But I'm not going to ever get over you

Living alone here in this place
I think of you and I am not afraid
Your favorite records make me feel better
Cause you sing along with every song
I know you didn't mean to leave them to me

But you went away
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I'll be ok
But I 'm not going to ever get over you

It really sinks in, you know, when I see it in stone

Cause you went away
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I'll be ok
But I'm not going to ever get over you

-miranda lambert
How dare you?
I miss you