dear cooper

my dear sweet precious cooper.

it has been a while since i have written, but that does not mean that you are not on my mind every day. i feel your presence most often when i am in the quiet of your brother's room, rocking him to sleep.

today is the 27th, two months until your second birthday. i thought this would be a good day to write you and thank you. thank you for the gifts that you gave me in your short life, gifts that will last a lifetime.

one of those gifts, athena, just spent the last four days with us. it was wonderful. we had a great time. it was like we had known each other for all of lives, not just the last year and a half. i have always said that you sent her my way, and after spending time with her i believe that more than ever.  your heart brought two people from different backgrounds together and changed our lives in a profound way. i am very grateful for this gift.  i am certain that she will be a part of my life forever, just as you will be a part of hers.

it was fun to watch stella and chace interact. it was good for him to play with another baby, to have to share his stuff. but two is a lot of work, even with two mama's around. we talked of you often, visited your garden, looked at your pictures, cried over your short life, and thanked you for your gift.

i have said this many times cooper, but i am so grateful that i am your mama. i proud of how you continue to touch lives and am so thankful i had the opportunity to know you and love you, and that i continue to feel your presence.

i love you and miss you so much!

your mama.