"You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face... You must do the thing you think you cannot do."- Eleanor Roosevelt
i found this quote today while i was searching through one of the blogs i read, marta writes, and it struck a chord with me. this is life as i know it these days.
yesterday i went to one of my local yarn shops, one that i frequented a great deal while i was pregnant, cooper has a large number of hand knit pieces. i knew that the trip was going to be difficult, that the owner was going to be so sad and there would be tears, but i also knew that i needed to go, that i had to stop and look fear in the face. that i have to tell coopers story to those who knew i was pregnant, but are not a part of our inner circle. that each time i share the story, i heal a little more.
the car ride over i could feel the emotion building and i sat in the parking lot for a few minutes before i was able to get myself out of the car. it was as i expected it to be, but it was also a moment where i gained strength, by telling coopers story, my story, life as it i know it, i became a little stronger. and that strength will enable me to do the next thing that i think i can not do.
and so goes my life as i know it these days, each experience where i have to tackle my fears head on is imploring me do the thing i thought i couldnt do, which is live without my sweet precious cooper.